i have not abandoned you

no worries folks, i have yet to abandon this blog. butttt i must announce that my friends over at the one love have asked me to blog for them as well. so i will be but i would love if you guys still read over there!

http://www.theonelove.org/janicetilley

i will still be posting here too but if you want the full tour of the brain of j tills then you may want to keep up in both places.

its 5 o'clock somewhere

a long bus ride is an interesting thing. i mean, i'm sitting among a variety of people. some i know very well and some i barely know at all but all of who i am getting to know as the days go on. its been pretty wonderful. i didnt have time before i left to share the news that i would be joining the burnin up tour to work for demi lovato at all the shows. kat and i pre sell her cd to 500 people every night for an after show meet and greet.

we only have 2 tour dates left in florida and its sad for it to be winding down. i am so thankful for the wonderful moments i have had on this tour though and the great opportunity to meet many new people.

sometimes i like to think about how life is so crazy. literally 2 weeks ago i was wondering what i;d be doing the next day and then i wake up and the next day i am in ohio and sleeping on a tour bus. i'm thankful. i appreciate it. i work hard.

i'm gonna go watch kevin play bubble breaker and listen to a movie in the background while we flea georgia for florida.

this was not very exciting but im in a sleepy lazy mood.

i have a life coming up

I often spend my weeks in Virgina, where I live, working at a bookstore and shipping Jonas brothers merchandise. Well starting tomorrow I will be away for 2 weeks! I wanted to let everyone know where i'd be heading just in case you bump into me! I would love to meet people who read my blog and say hi!

Aug 5 - Honor Society show @ knitting factory in NYC. 7 pm.
Aug 7 - Police Show @ MSG
Aug 8 - Jonas Show @ Jones Beach
Aug 9 - Jonas Show @ MSG
Aug 10 - Jonas Show @ MSG
Aug 11 - Jonas Show @ MSG
Aug 12 - JONAS CD OUT!!! Release Party.
Aug 15 - Honor Society/Article A Show @ School of Rock in NJ
Aug 16 - Jonas Show @ PNC
Aug 17 - Back to Virgina
Aug 18 - Jonas Show @ Nissan Pavilian in DC

All shows i will be at I will be with Kat! we would love it if you came up and said hi and got a picture or something!! we love meeting our online friends :)


Hope everyone is having a good summer!


I will be back with some wise words another time soon...

in the moment

life isnt about what or who makes you happy. you have to live to make yourself happy. be yourself because honestly you were created that way for a reason. it is 100% more fulfilling to be true to yourself than to try to be a new person. dont you think the god that created you knows more about you that you cant even wrap your head around?

life is meant to be lived fully. live it out and live it up. be happy, be yourself. dont worry about what everyone thinks about you because honestly they probably dont think about you as much as you worry they do. 

make good friends. keep up with your friends. dont judge. dont dwell. forgive and forget. do what you want. love others. love yourself. fall in love. fall out of love. find better love. 

love isn't all its cracked up to be. its a struggle, it takes work, it includes fights and trials. dont think it should always be about the romance because it should be about the friendship foundation as well. remember to laugh things off and dont take yourself too seriously. everyone gets their heart broken at some point. everyone heals and moves on eventually. be glad for the current moment in your life whether you are happy or sad or what have you because you are there for a reason. 

be thankful to be in the moment. 

you never know

ya know how you meet new people everyday? well don't take them for granted. they may become your new best friend or they may teach you the greatest lesson ever. you never know.

friendships are always changing, growing, or ending. people are never going to be fully understood by you. seriously, life will throw some curveballs at you and you have to roll with it.

i have had some of the greatest friendships ever throughout my life, they have been long lasting or brief but they all shaped who i am today.

make sure you keep your eyes open to new people and don't judge. believe me, i lately learned that thinking "eh, he's cool but whatever" could turn into "oh my goodness, i never want to stop talking to him." and of course the ever famous "she's so quiet and hangs out with her dad while wearing plaid shorts" can turn into "seriously we are best friends for life."

never be afraid to talk to someone you think is cool or funny or nice because they may end up being just the right person to cheer you up when you are sad and alone. they may be next person to teach you just the lesson you needed to learn. or maybe they will just be the next person you share a great inside joke with. you never know.

life is great, god is great. he's always gonna know exactly what you need and when you need it and a lot of times he offers it through the love and friendship of others. don't turn your back on a stranger because they may be the person who becomes your best friend. or who you date. or the person you marry. or even the next person to make you laugh.

i'm so thankful for every friend i've ever had. if i could post pictures in here of every person who has impacted me the whole world would be in this blog.

thanks for being my friends. new and old. always and forever.

(awww...this was so sentimental...)

monkeys are rad

and so is merch (and by merch, i mean chris. not my job).


i am a person who once set in an idea, must finish it. back in like march i think, i decided i wanted to be friends with chris. he sells merch for the band article a. i had gone to a few shows of theirs because they played with honor society, jonas, etc. well, he is gorgeous. he knows is, you know it, we all know it. that is basically the one reason i wanted to be his friend. so i set on a mission. i got his myspace, i awkwardly messaged him about moving, i asked for his screen name, i drank a little bit, and i imed him. our first conversation was awkward but highly entertaining.

it is months later and we are monster good friends. we talk often about some of the greatest things ever. he is so hilarious and so cocky that is pisses me off and it makes me laugh all at the same time.

its crazy though for us to be as close as we are while never really speaking in person. i mean, its not hard to believe with how much talking we do and how many annoying get to know you questions i asked him for the first month of our friendship, but still. haha its even crazier to me the amount of things he knows and remembers about me that end up actually helping me out. like one day we were talking about how everyone has a thing. we talked about how his thing was words. and we went through a few other people and what their certain thing was and i seriously had no clue what mine was. merch knew instantly. it was awesome for me to know he actually cared enough to be able to know that much about me and tell me flat out something i didnt even notice in myself. (it is story telling. at least once a week i will tell him a bizarre story, similar to all the ones i tell in my live chats. haha)

my favorite thing about merch is that we both listen to awesome music. almost every week i buy a cd he tells me to get and it is always good. the best is by the matches called decompsure. it was the first one he ever told me to buy and its been the best so far. although i have enjoyed many others like the 2 other matches cds, new thrice cd, and cursive - ugly organ. he has good taste is music. i enjoy that. well, it may not be my favorite thing about merch but its one of them. i think my favorite thing is that he tells me i am awesome almost daily and seriously, you can never heard that enough. (just because you have now read this, dont stop calling me awesome. i'll punch you in the weiner.)

its funny how people think, like if someone was to ask what they should write a blog on i would automatically say me! and thats usually how it works. whenever i am in the mood to write i ask whoever i am talking to "what should i write on tonight?" and they say me! well. merch said monkeys. or me. or both.

this has nothing to do with monkeys. i wish i owned a monkey sometimes like ross did on friends. i thought marcel was the coolest monkey and i wanted one just like him. now im a little indifferent about it because i feel i would lack all skills to clean up after it.

im going to NJ tomorrow. i'll be at an honor society show tomorrow and bamboozle sat and sun. i am very very excited to see everyone again. its gonna be hard for us all with steph gone, but we are living it up for her.

i'm "meeting" merch for the first time on sunday. it will probably be the most awkward glorious moment of my life because he has some sort of ridiculous surprise he has planned for the day with his friends and i am filming it for my new online show i will be taping so i will definitely exaggerate all my plans. i hope it goes slow motion as we collide into each other. (he just wants to capitalize on me fame and that is why he wants in on the taping this weekend. once my first episode is out, feel free to tell me if you think he brought his A game or if i am the more awesome one.) :)

i hope i recognize him. you know those people who look different in like every picture? merch is like that to me.


today i watched a kid run circles around the food court area outside my work shouting 7! touchdown! 7! over and over again. he fell over after about 20 laps, which he thought was only 7, and i laughed so hard. i then laughed even harder when he stood up and got so dizzy he ran into a wall. it was hilarious.

welp. its late.

everyone go check out "see you in the dark" my honor society on their myspace! www.myspace.com/honorsociety




oh, and sometime when merch has his own music, which is most likely be amazing cause ive heard som early demos, look for me in the parking lot. i'll be bootlegging his face on a tshirt. you'll want one.


in the wise words of a friend "i hear God is a pilates buff".

<3 jack girl.

lauren eberle: a winner in making me laugh so hard i had to leave a wake

have you ever had so much you wanted to say about a person and no words to really capture them? that is lauren to me. so much wonderful and too little space to write.

lauren and i met like any other obligation group of best friends should. awkwardly. all of our closest friends were closest friends with each other and hearing about lauren nonstop only made me want to be her friend as well. so we hung out for the first time back in january and it was love at first sight and site (get it. site. facebook is how we met first but more on that in a moment.).

previous to that though, we did have this conversation on facebook:
me to lauren: i'm glad we are friends..because to be honest ive been stalking you for awhile.
lauren to me: i'm glad we are friends too because tonight i called steph and told her how the fact that i have yet to meet you is ruining my life... and that i would stalk you but i am unable to view your life - so now i can do so freely. :)

so basically that was it. i knew we would be friends for life since we could openly stalk from then on. from then on we discussed everything from snotty noses to home on the range to hot boys to jonas bonas.

now as much as i enjoyed being facebook friends with lauren i truly enjoyed the reality aspect of our lives as well. i am not sure why this is but lauren can make me laugh so hard that at any given moment i will literally be able to pee my pants/dress i wear 3 days in a row. we have a tag team aspect of our humor that basically borders on monstrously inappropriate. we definitely work better in a crowd as well, the audience seems to thrive off of her actual humor and my ability to laugh so loudly that everyone laughs out of how uncomfortable they are to be seen by me.

lauren may be the only person i can poll very random people on the aspects of sex that i just dont understand but also discuss the very serious matter of what you do when your poop is too large to flush and also the general suckiness of having that one guy in the world that you cant stop thinking about while he makes out with ugly asians (not cool ones like lisa).

i am very glad i could sit in her car and discuss that day john mayer serenaded her on stage at msg to being in the car in front of her while showing off my $2 drugstore microfiber bikini underwear that has now become infamous.

seriously, add her on facebook. myspace. your life. she's worth it for how nonstop hilarious she is. sometimes so much that i have to cover my ears as to not pee my dress. or as my title so lovely describes, she made me laugh so hard i had to leave the wake of our best friend to go laugh so hard i teared up in the coat room. there is nothing gentlemanly about showing that much of your stomach or walking around with tp. seriously people, classes start monday.

nice people finish last

i was told what my blog topic should be about next, and it is nice people. its tough enough to write a blog when i only have skills and not skillz yet but to be told what to write about could possibly be an even bigger cause of anxiety. i think i am up to the challenege though. (hopefully this is up to your blog standards grog.)

this week i have gotten to speak with a great friend of mine quite a few times, and its actually really shocking being that normally he is traveling the country and lacks the abiltiy to communicate as well as normal humans who stay in one place, or even one state everyday. when talking we were sharing how we are both burdened or blessed with the ever so special trait of being the nice ones. the ones always looking out for their friends because you feel such a love for them that their happiness is more important than yours. i actually enjoy this trait about myself but i do see where it causes problems. i am the girlfriend who will do your laundry if you casually mention you have no clean clothes or i'll order you a freakin pizza over the internet despite you living thousands of miles away because i know you cant for yourself. it eventually does have a wearing down problem that comes along with it or maybe even the loss of ones self in another. perhaps its just something you learn as you go along.

now i dont mean to make that sound as if i think i need to do those things to gain approval from anyone but rather i do it because its like a craving i have in myself to just please. i just love the act of making others happy because that fuels me in a way like no other.

my friend was sharing the nice guys finish last tidbit of info with me during this conversation. i'd like to hit on that a bit now. nice guys probably do finish last but in the best way possible. i tend to believe scripture and luckily christ speaks about the last shall be first and the first shall be last. i know despite us all being the ones going behind picking up everyone elses slack, it'll be made up to us in heaven if we have the peace of mind that christ died for us. so in actuality nice guys finishing last is really winning the race of life. so a+ to the slow people because you'll be mvps in the end.

i dont think this blog has really covered any points on anything other than the fact that greg and i are nice and its good and bad. thats about all i can come up with that this point so i do apologize for the fact that you probably read this and got nothing out of it.

i now feel obligated to copy greg's blog a bit and feature some people but sticking with the topic

of nice i will feature two people i feel are some of the winners in that category. greg, since being the inspiration of this blog will of course have to be mentioned. greg is nice perhaps even beyond the words of nice. meeting him this summer was great. i dont want to boost his ego anymore than needed though so i'll just say he was one of my favorite people on the bus because we were often on the same page with things. he's one of the few people i talk to now that i am off tour and i am thankful for that definitely. i don't think he'll ever know how much we all respect him but i guess this blog may help him to realize even a little bit of how many people really enjoy his company.

kat. i dont think there are words to how wonderfully nice she is. she puts her all into every aspect of her life, no matter what. seriously, i think i could ask her to pick me up from virginia drive me to california and drive me back and she would do it without even thinking no. not that im telling you to do that, because im pretty protective of her. i am not so crazy about how many people think its ok to ask her to do everything for them knowing she will say yes. kat is my best friend. i'll always be thankful for this summer solely because of how close we became and how important she is to me. kat deserves the best and she'll totally win the race of nice people finish last.

so basically. be friends with greg and kat because you can't go wrong. if nothing else they will listen to whine nonstop about relationships and life and they will always have your back whenever you need it. it's pretty much money to be their friend.

stay tuned for my next blog when i compose a wonderful story known as, lauren eberle: a winner in making me laugh so hard i had to leave a wake. and just as a little preview i would like to leave you with this photograph of the wonderful slaur.

i just keep staring blankly

i'm not much for finding the correct words in hard situations so i will just start with wow. i've never really had a friend pass away before, let alone one of my closest friends. i'm not sitting here looking for awkward i'm sorries from people more looking for a place to say oh my goodness i am shocked. literally hanging out with someone 4 days ago to hearing they were found dead.

steph was literally nonstop hilarity. i don't think i ever knew how to stay mad at her no matter what because she was so off the wall that i couldn't help but want to be around her. i know i will always remember the many good times we all shared together and i am just thankful that i could call her a friend.

i know i speak for everyone when we say thank you for your prayers and encouragement when dealing with this situation. thank you for all the love you have showed today to me and all of her other friends.

some classics from steph:

"was there a murder in your town or is someone hunting turkeys"

"you naked?" (asked often but once to "enrique inglesias" )

"i thought you were gray, i didnt know you could blush" - aunt becky. haha

"jonas bonas" and of course the song that comes along with that.


rip steph. i love you and miss you.

i like to write

i am a blog connoisseur. i like to read about what is going on with people and hear their thoughts and see their pictures. i think its probably because i am too lazy to actually talk to them and hear about it directly. blogs are so easy.

i don't know what makes me think that people will care to read about my days and my thoughts but i care to share them so i'll read em again sometime if nothing else.


i became an avid blog reader before last summer. i knew i was going on tour with a band and i knew the bassist wrote a blog. thats basically all i knew about him at all actually but i decided to be a creeper and read it. i figured i might as well learn what it will be like to spend my months living with a bunch of guys i didn't know and perhaps this blog would help.

nothing helped. haha the first week was awkward and uncomfortable to be the only girl, doing a job that no one had taught me, while being judged by strangers. they didnt judge cause they were jerks or anything but solely because who the heck was i to them. haha i mean i came into their tiny living space and was a chick which meant they had to keep their clothes on when i was around. thankfully they did though. plus i judged them too i'm sure.

i eventually broke enough out of my shy shell to get to know them. for that i am truly thankful. i literally had the best summer of my life and i spent it with some amazing people. i don't think i could ever find the appropriate words to share with them on what they did for my life or my heart that summer. i wouldn't say that i came out of the summer being best friends with every person on that bus but i would say that i came out with a couple. but perhaps the ones i am not friends with taught me more about how to live my life anyways.

i used to expect everyone to like me because i was nice, christian, and easy going. what was i thinking? i of course need to earn respect and appreciation. i hope i did that even in the slightest.


outside of that bus my whole life was changing. i was trying to make friends, i was planning my day around the meals i would really hope to eat, i was having my heart broken daily and only sometimes did i have a person to share it with, and i was thinking about my impending move to virginia.

luckily for me though i was working pretty much all day and all night it felt like so i didn't have much time to think about things. even more lucky for me now is that it's all sorted out or settled.

life is great.

ps. i did meet my best friends on tour too, they just weren't on the bus. i am so thankful for them because they came around when i needed them the most and they played as openers or they helped sell merch or they just made me laugh.